my mum won 4d and she gave me $2.
i think its funny rather then pathetic.

sometimes i really ponder hard
is everything in life planned and fated?
is our life symbolizing a storybook?
what kind of friends would we get to know?
golden friends who will be chosen to be our everlasting buddies?
what types of opportunities would we get?
our love ones?
when is our last breath?
our characters?
inborn talent?
immerse number of choices?
Unforeseen circumstances?
paths of life?
answer?
who? u? me? or god?


Our life is like a passport.
life meant to be beautiful,isnt it?
cos we will only live once and not twice.
if we dun enjoy now then when will be the ripe time to do so?
when we are human on earth or an angel in heaven?

opportunities is just like a ball
catch it or simply fly pass u. thats it.
no one is willing to spare u another ball nor
wait till u catch the ball.
its either now or never.
so when u are still alive, get hold of all opportunitites.
it dun always come to u .


why cant every human place a smile on their face everyday.
its vitally important and essential for being part of our healthy lifestyle.
isnt life is a barrel of laughs?


sometime i really envy "gwen" for having a stressfree life.
she can simply boils down everything to the simple choices or decisions.
im envy
unfortunately i could never be like her .
cos our perception is different
different set of goals

its good to have a role model. i had one for every level.
this is somesort like a pushing driven force for myself.

when i lie on my bed
i got this dying feeling
my brain is insufficient to support myself.
suddenly i have this feeling of loneliness
i shout and again no one heard.

im feeling inadequate somehow.
i do not know how to explain this verbally.
but seems unassertive.
my brain is always 100% occupied.
i need an external hard disk to share my work load.
everything seems frantic.