what is my talent?

my mum told me that my talent is "sleeping in the day and waking up in the nite".
this is rubbish.

my bro wans to train my stamina. he say it is a must to go gym with him twice per week.
im definately reluctant but yet i know i have to train myself.
im had transformed into a worm.

i did not had a good slp last nite. keep tossing and pondering the problem.
my mum had settled the smelly shit for me.

cunning ppl with hidden mask are everywhere.

im confused. really

big sigh

my new pot girl fren, she said.

i hate this word "stupid", friends who are close to me should noe this word would terriblily agitates me. big sigh- and i received thrice today. i deserved them.

anyway feedbacks are good. big sigh from me, a very very big sigh exploded out from me but it issnt a bad sigh tho.

im lucky that i have good mentors around me. they never failed to give me excellent advices and opportunities. today's lesson shall be an unforgetful lesson for me. i gave my assurance to them that i will take extra responsiblity in my future act.

2007 is coming to the end, im glad that i've achieved my target for the year.
big round of applause for myself! thank you. thank you.

tmr is another BZ day for me. its 4am now and i have to wake up at 8am later.


im tired but my mind is occupied with tomorrow's schedule. i had my lunch and dinner while driving. i dun have the time to spare and sit down to enjoy a proper meal.

din really have a good rest for the past few days. Keep waking up in the middle of the nite. my brain of hard disk is full. data seems to overflow. one word, stress.

i told my mentor about my challenging plans in 2008, she seems supportive. great!

time to slumber. thank you

a pillar of support

if ever in ur life, someone looks down on you, i promise i will not be the one.

i hope that i can inject endless laughters into ur life.

sit back and enjoy my nonsenses. =)

have a great day everyone.

=)

someone actually contributed http://www.heptune.com/farts.html to me. this is a funny one.

just wanna take and take and take and take. And take and take and take. -- i like


i have major problem with my languages seriously. new invention. e say teng ( isetan). this word just flow out from my mouth when i was replying to my brother. this is indeed one of the disturbing habit i had. i just dun get through my mind whats wrong with my tongue.

i woke up at 1230pm. my friend manage to wake me up after an hour of morning calls.

i cruised "Mr nice guy" around northwest area. i have zillions of calls throughout the entire day, while walking, while eating, while driving, while shopping etc etc. thanks for being uncomplaining. apologies to make u suffer.
i know its frustrating. oh ya i broke a glass at my c's place. this is so embarrassing.

went town in the early evening. i bought something at male urban.
Mr "Nice guy" brought me to crystal jade.
as usual followed by her fav. store and she managed to buy her desire stuff.
i went to my store too and i saw alot of bar girls. hai~

alot of ppl are infected with flu virus. ppl ard me are sneezing away.
shall enjoy this raining season as it's going away soon.

i have alot of stuffs to remember everyday. let me die. everything seems to raid my memory bank.

i shall learn more to reciprocate towards nice people.

tomorrow is another long day for me. shall practice my korean soon and off my hp till i wake up.
noone shall disturb me.

spilt personality

slimest pic i ever taken.

just concluded that i might have spilt personality.

i finally understand this issue from 1 2.this is extremely weird. i realised.
thanks.

i had an enjoyable christmas. blessing in disguise.

my predicament era is over. i hope its really over. my eye is not getting better, lucky that my vision is clear. i showed and asked my mum how serious this might can be. She told me that my tiny blood vessels has burst. she told me that she once had this same occasion whereby She shit-ted too hard and this takes her months to heal.

yesterday, i accompanied mum to her so called "senior citizen disco party". Damn funny as all of them look high. The songs that the DJ played consisted of oldies, techno and rnb. one of the song is "cant get you out of my head". i was like, my goodkness and those seniors manage to dance cha cha, rock and roll, line dance etc with the music. lol
my mum can dance. she shakes well. so funny.

thanks for all the gifts.
esp the 2 red boxers and pierre cardin pen.

i bought myself a new watch and ring.
i love watches. yeah.
miss and me bought the same watch, couple watch hur?

My brother is insane today. He did someting that amazed me today

He prepared dinner for me.

He mop and vacumn the entire house.

He cleared his room.

last but not least, congras to him as he found a bar girl job at the airport.

Im not sure wats his actual job scope. newae its wine related. So he's a bar girl

i dun understand why some people's fart really stinks. it really stinks.

** Mary, ni hai zai check na ge zip you mei you huai? sorry to make fun of u.. but u noe i dun mean it.

heading town with pui and ferry tomorrow. shopping

The Senior citizens disco party. listen to the background music. Fantastic. Im pretending to use the phone whereas im shooting the scene. The one that is nearest to me is my mum. See how well she can shake in her 50s. ah lian cum lao cute.

everything happens for a reason

im feel relief now.

i had coma for exactly two days. awful experience.

concrete evidence even though it's rather skeptical.

miss "currently" gave me a safety harness to prevent me from falling.
im glad. 12 thanks for the compliment

i will literally re- programming myself to get out from these.
my efforts are totally in vain and thrown down to the toilet bowl full of "lao sai".

it doesnt matter me anymore. if god were to be fair, samatha will find out the truth eventually.

none explaination is needed because someone has been acting as a king over this.
silence is better.



it's only a "yes" or " no" question.


The past is the past. all it matters now is from this fucking single point.

trust ur own gut feelings and every action is under my control. That's it!

123 =)





aye. i think i dun need to get married tmr. i will tell him that i just get divorced yesterday and my ex-husband beat me up. im not a pig but a dragonpig. she said that

a fairy tale

a fairy came to me, used her magic wand to bring back my original soul and takes away my sorrow.

1 2 3 fucking stay away from me.

i dun think im arrogant nor unreasonable
i believe that everything happens for a reason.
i have my own beliefs
i will try to find the best solutions for all problems.
im cool at all times.
i hate masks
i love to be an entertainer and feeling contented to receive smiling faces.
im insane when out with buddies
im silent when out with love
im serious during work
i dun get piss easily
i dun roar unreasonably
i kept my emotions in my heart
i love to receive laughters from my love ones
i hate liars
im true to my frens.
sincerity
i hope to receive the same treatment
i hate to be made a fool
emo when im stress
i cried in my heart.
utterly disappointment
im a human



i felt fortunate to have a friend like patty. we share our thoughts and ideas under the sun. i love her. i always thought that patty and him are friends. eventually he had a crush on patty but she chose to hide the truth.

Because in her mind, im petty and sensitive.
I wan to tell her straight, its only when i sense something is not right then i will be sensitive. Dun expect me to be like a mad woman 24/7 being sensitive?

if patty were to tell me the truth about him in the first place or as early as possible, i would leave him for good and my friendship will be double closer to patty.

but patty chose to hide the secret and be her ever best actress.
what would i feel?

Sorry i wun be grateful to you. I will leave him and patty with no second thoughts. just stay away from me from now on. I dun beg for friends. If frens noe that im worth being, they will come to me and i will treasure them.

supposingly i am able to have a friend now. but now could both of you just kindly stay far away from me. stay away from me now. im like a volcano going to erupt anytime. i will roar anytime.

Dun call me dun sms me dun msn me.



im not insane like wat u think pls and dun think highly of yourself.



friends should have mutual trust.
every person has their own good and bad personality and character.
no one in this world is perfect. but there is someone who thinks that she is rules the world.
let it be. im fucking fine.



im felt being thrown down from the angel heaven. i perceive everything in a perfect way and view.
anticipated something nuisance to happen. pls do not get me involved. i fucking sick of this.
if u afford to lose me, im two times affordable to lose u without a second thought .
things are like this, if u think im worthy or sincere to stay by ur side, treasure me. if not just fuck me off. im fine. totally acceptable.

i am myself. i have the right to hate whoever i wan and love whoever i wan.
dun fucking judge me because you are nothing to me at all.

ppl who noes me well, im straight forward.

im selfish, im reluntant to give chances. i wun give u a second fucking look this time round.

if you think you are great, just continue with your fucking fabulous beliefs. its none of my business. good actresses.

i dun think i meant a single bit in their lifes. perhaps im just a foolish entertainer to pass their time.
audience, im not a toy. im not a clown.

im surprised that human beings has all kinds. i supposed that all should have the same thinking. infact its merely a fairy tale.

i have zero tolerance for excellent liars and actresses

im blind. hands up. fantastic story. applaused. everything is so well done.

fairy came at the right time.
im glad.

im perfectly extremely cool while writing this entry.

do not come into my life anymore. dun disturb me with ur rubbish. i dun entertain. just kindly fuck off my life and lead ur own pretty life.


thank you very much

achieving my goals

this kind of lifestyle is fatal.
i will come out of the glue on christmas eve.

tmr shopping with pui and i need to start my engine by then.

gravitate towards something.

Those smiles on their faces made it all worthwhile



s: u got maintain your bush or not

me:
haven trim my bush
why suddenly ask abt my bush?

s:
i see. i just send my bush for servicing just now
coz that day "t" ask me got maintain boh



me says:
hope i did cheer up ur nite though im not a porn star
alibaba says:
hahah yeah u did




chrisgan says:
i going to slp le

Six days you shall labour - says:
lol

Six days you shall labour - says:
u slp one meh

chrisgan says:
of cos leh..

chrisgan says:
hahhaa

chrisgan says:
u think i spider man?

chrisgan says:
erm

chrisgan says:
bat man?




s says:
sigh

s says:
4 days

chrisgan says:
if u wan to listen to my voice.. u may call me . $10 per 10 mins

s says:
HAHAHA FKZ

chrisgan says:
i accept bank transfer or nets or cheque
thank you

s says:
ok steady

s says:
i cross check to gandoo.blogspot.com

chrisgan says:
lol

world news

i hereby announce to the entire world, planet, earth, moon , alantic ocean, pacific ocean, china, india, south africa, singapore, malaysia, bintan, batam, phuket, stars, air and people, "pls do not ask me out till sat nite". dun flood me with temptation. my tolerance for tempatation is low. i need to have some self discipline. hope u guys understand.

the time now is 6am and im still wide awake. pls kill me . feed me with rat poison and let me fell asleep like romeo and juliet.

car ride is superb.

i have tons and loads of work to do. everyting is piling up just as high as mount faber.
im having this bizarre behaviour this few days. being polluted with emo mindset. guess im stress with work. im enjoying it although it's never ending.


btw this qns jog into my mind. wat is love?
still pondering on this qns. This is indeed a difficult one. i do not have a definate ans but love is miracle, it has no meaning at all. The most important fact that love has no explantion. Then this is call love.

depends on individual mindset. love can be wonderful from a brighter point of view. no point pondering and pointing out each other faults. this is not love, in fact this is only pass time companionship.

Love is the perfect ingredients to happiness. Love isn't all about looking at only good looking woman. this is only physical attraction. if u only love a person because of physical attraction and nothing else, that is merely a crush.

Love is respect, wanting to help that person in any aspect of their lives, love the person for who she is, protect her from harms and sorrow, knowing that each other will be there and feeling safe with that person, sharing goals and joy together, never gets bored with conversation, feeling proud with each other.

personally i agreed that love do hurts in some ways but its all still depends on oneself.

anyway i'm dunno wat im talking about. ans are infinite. my brain is bleeding with needles and i cannot think well.

Everything can be recyle but time cannot. once time passed, it cannot be rewind. just ask yourself when you wake up every morning. " Should i choose to be happy or sad for the day?" you made own decision. for my case, i chose to be happy everyday.

inside a war room

im sick of going out at nite. none place interest me anymore.

dun irritate me. im bz.

pardon me if i sound annoyed in the phone.

BZBZBBZBZBZBZBZBBZBZBZBZBZBZBZBBZBZ

im bz.

beyond my boundaries
verge of giving up, yet must stay tenacious
it's very tough.
im facing challenge.
remain focused.
trying to formulate my own receipe
leaving big smiles on their face is my reward

i still find it hilarious. my gm actually paid $4450 in cash for her hosipital fees, $50 notes bundle up with rubber bands. I was like fucks, wat a substantial sums of money.
Next, she told me that the air con in the ward is freezing and she wanted to open the window so that hot air can come in . i was like " no no cannot".. lol
fucking funny and orbiang.

someone asked me to "jian fei' 5kg. i think i will die.

i'm not having any moodswing. just a little emo. around 10% of emo concentration.

i need miracle
chill man

all humans are fallible.

accompanied gm to hospital.

there was this auntie talking on the phone damn loudly. Realised she just had her operation. thoughout her converstation. i was shocked when she asked her son to buy "long tong for her". long tong after operation hur?

watching hong xing da jiang. the guy in red damn exaggerating and fake. i dun like him.

perceived some changes
empathy feelings
deduced sadness

guess my emo period is back.introvert era.

preoccupied

my mind is preoccupied today

lousy bowler
went old changi hospital last nite. spent more than an hour cruising there. kinda suppressing my fear when i was there cos i heard many stories happened around there. nevertheless i felt im quite brave cos someone is just so kind to hold my hands.

that stupid $19 touch light which i bought at mustafa din last long. went 7 eleven to purchase another one instead.

went back and was being guided by a few 38s and someting bad happened to beibi. feeling guilty as im the runner of the nite.

reached home ard 6am.


s: then i suddenly rem, when i was helping mei remove the bee,
when i finally get rid of it,
i stand up, then a said "woah. chris."
then i look behind mei.
"aye where is chris?"


"OH MY GOODNIS. SHE AT THE BOTTOM OF THE HILL 150M AWAY"


i tot u were playing u noe
i tot u purposely run far far so we will laugh
i didnt noe u meant it.
u scared of the ants. or u tot ghost?

me:
both
HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAA

Im back

Im back for good. Same old me, my posts will be indirect. hope to articulate my thoughts well through blogging. im aware that my posts will have countless grammar, spelling , punctuation, tenses, vocab and all kinds of watever nosensensical mistakes. correct me if u want and i open myself to feedbacks . but i dun give a damn. lol

bought a touchlight at mustafa last nite. hope todays plan will bring exitement.

looking forward to shop with pui and bugis reminds me of the badges that pui bought and left at the cafe. funny

im feeling blissful today. hope this mood will not go off.

" One fine sunny day, a girl was feeling hungry while doing her work half way. She was wearing her blue simpsons boxer and grabbed her secondary PE shorts, put it on blindly and head down for lunch. Happily, she ate her lunch. hums and chicken meats.. On her way home, while holding a cig on her hand and smoking proudly, she look around and finally downwards. she got a shock when she realised, HER SIMPSONS BOXER IS LONGER DEN HER PE SHORTS. Fucks.."

----- the end---------

kindly lame. im lame. lamest.




nap came in at 1pm. slpt till 4pm.. went for foot, body massage.

dun feel like doing anything but i feeling lazy at this moment. mayb i sleep too much.

i going to rest on my bed again. zzZzzzzZzzz

btw.. i miss jill