CAN ANYONE HEAR ME?

my heart shouted out to the entire world but none could hear me.
sadly.there's no reply. none.

ah pui
so what?
so what? tell me? so what?
all these are bullshit.
CAN U HEAR ME?
IM SO UNHAPPY
SO WHAT? SO WHAT??
TELL ME FACE TO FACE. WHAT IS THAT SO GREAT ABOUT?
nothing! again my unhappiness aint going away.
should i just put my hands up?

im lazy
im fat
im messy
im a slob.

home n sober
pop some pain killer

how?

confusion.
mind doesnt fit with my speech anymore

hur?

if i were to sell at $45.10
would anyone give a damn?

but i bid someone for $45.10
for a date in mustafa



a lady called.
" do u sell ur database"
i said "no".
" is there any way that i could share your database."
i said "no"

insane.

half breed.

p`
wth i cant believe i believed you.
p`-
haha
chrisgan- says:
hahahhahaha
chrisgan- says:
i oso cant believe that u actually believed me

**
dun leave me alone =(

i love them for who they are

dun kill me. i just find ur expression interesting. lol


sickening face







i love them for who they are







my body might not be able to take it as it used to be.
slept at 7am in the morning.


im not going for any exhibition or competition
i write for myself
so what if my grammar sucks?
so what?

some ppl are just far too arrogant
wats so great about a good education background
its just a piece of paper
so what?
fuck off

over sensitive or protective in a relationship is unhealthy
a relationship is just like a handful of sand.
the tigher u chose to close ur hand inorder to got hold of all the sand, the more it will flows out from ur hand.

we hope and want our love ones to lead the life as wat we are now.
but we need to let them lead their lives too.
spend time worrying and preventing them for doing something, the more it will become a threat.

the more we afraid, the worse way of solving problem as it is.
why generate high level of stress when problem arise after the threat?
everything happens for a reason.
and i totally agreed with it.

why shut down all doors?
why cant u just walk out of the door and get a breathe of the fresh air in the garden?
life is a wonderful journey
i hope u had understand urself better
learn , learn and learn
that u will grow much stronger after this.

life aint meaningless and it aint at all
u are ur own author of ur life.
why let someone else be the author of ur life?

be proud that u are stronger
be proud that u will grow prettier
losing a part of ur flesh is nothing
its just a challenage from the god.
when the challenage is over,
u will find urself stronger and happier

time heals
trust me
if someone so close to u can do it
why cant u?

=)

no topic

fLy says:
not as proud as m**** lor
fLy says:
i dun choose frens


Q says:
but it doesn't matter what school you go to what
Q says:
its what you become



p`- says:
wth is gandoo?
chrisgan- says:
my name lor
p`- says:
no.. you are so lying

how can i convince u that im gandoo but not other living or non living thing?


p`- says:
is ur dad local?
chrisgan- says:
mixed
p`- says:
OH now its clearer.
p`- says:
whats he?
chrisgan- says:
my father is mixture from south india n north india
my mother is mixture from su zhou and nan zhou
my real identity is south north indian cum chee na

p`- says:
oh thats awesome.
p`- says:
how come u dont look indian?..
p`- says:
hey i hope i dont come off as sacarstic..i mean im really curious
p`- says:
i have a tendency of coming off as sacarstic and bitchy. but im really nice
p`- says:
hahaha
chrisgan- says:
i took more of the south indian part because i dun smell as badly as them and look more like chinese compared to the north indians
chrisgan- says:
dun u feel that i dun look like china type of chinese and more of the mix type
p`- says:
yeah true. i so didnt know you're mixed
p`- says:
but well..at least i noe something extra about you now
chrisgan- says:
=)
chrisgan- says:
but its kinda common nowadays
chrisgan- says:
ppl like to mix
chrisgan- says:
haha
p`- says:
hhaah yeah




fLy says:
one thing she doesnt know: u are full of shit



chrisgan- says:
during work is very difficult
fLy says:
then u wanna get portable basin ar?

**portable basin so that i could cry anytime at anywhere hur


i asked the below qns to ard 5 ppl and one of the replies amazed me and laughing out loud.

chrisgan- says:
i ask u .. if there is 2 girls like u at the same time... one is a tattooist and the other is wan tan mee seller.. which one will u choose? u are not able to get any freebies from either of them.
Ray. says:
who is nicer to me first?
chrisgan- says:
wah
chrisgan- says:
ok
chrisgan- says:
i think u are more to the wan tan mee seller
chrisgan- says:
ok
chrisgan- says:
its a personality test
chrisgan- says:
good good
Ray. says:
cannot cannot
Ray. says:
must tell me and let me choose
chrisgan- says:
hahahahahaha
Ray. says:
who is nicer to me?
chrisgan- says:
both are the same
Ray. says:
who's family is readily to accept me? <--- this is damn fucking funny
chrisgan- says:
hahha
chrisgan- says:
both
Ray. says:
is the wan tan mee nice?

good friday

45 mins late


slim ! i guess u will love it. magical camera


her expression. dun kill me


happy people


gotcha


act cute




i felt silly.
keep pressing the controller and unable to activate the door.
i was like telling myself "shit controller spoil hur".
den i realised i was standing beside a car which is not mine and
yet i could stay there for a quite some time.
blur queen.


38% of fats concentration.
it might seems normal.
but my bro is only having 7.8% of fats concentration.
do u still think im normal?

excuses

Zhe- says:
the determined one will look at the reasons why business in Singapore is better than elsewhere


jAc *wInKz* says:
dont stay in ur comfort zone


hmmmm..

---
im realised im finding alot of excuses for being lazy.

my dream is to change car every 3 years.
sleep, drink, club, shop, drive, golf
in fact i dun like to work.
my dreams are rather ridiculous.
how can i achieve my silly dream.

turn off

btw its abstain instead of attain.


terrible.
someone actually send me a pic , attached with resume, with one thread of his nostril hair coming out. pls dun ask why i use the word "thread" . it just came out from my mind.
this is not funny


im feeling slpy.. but im awake for only 8 hrs .

someone send me a threatening msg this morning around 5am.
im so bloody turn off.
hes just so persistent to get the bloody $80 before 12am.
cant he just be flexible.
weird characters are around.

i have no stand to criticise ppl.
but thats my response.

shirlin , lets go out soon!

resume speaks

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6 years in experience. My favourite is Mathematics. Within 3 months, students will have 1 grade jump for their mathmatics. Laslty, I’m An patient and will accommodate the students pace of learning.

pok gai lah..



chrisgan- says:
why haven slp
StooPid liL fLy says:
badjojo

honest ppl like her are rare in this world




"thank you" this word doesnt cost a single cent.
in another word,
its free.

"a pat on the shoulder" implies care,
in another word,
its free again.

so what if u say thank you to a fren?
does it means that u are vulnerable?
i guessed both of the above are greatly appreciated.

random

my mind is in a random state.
pms is definately out.

i want to attain from smoking, i cant
i wan to changed my sleeping timing, i failed
i wan to maintain my diet, its hard.
cos im lazy

when we compare ourseleves to those who have more, we feel bad,envy, jealous
when we compare ourselves to those who have less, we feel grateful.
which category are u in ?

i look like a drug addict- he said.

i dun get the point why human beings have different mindset.
different characters.
one brain per human,
the way that we are being brought up.
if only u were rich, u will be influenced by ppl around them,
surrounded with shit
lousy family
u will follow and assure what ur parent said is right.

this is the reason why different ppl has their own different n unique mindset.
on how they are being brought up.

so what if u were born in a poor family?
does it mean that u have to blame and curse ur entire family?

god gave us perfect hands and legs?
so what is it used for?
exhibition ?
playing nintendo?
digging ur nose?
its for u to create a miracle for urself.
urself.

i wan to create miracle.
im going to the toilet now to create a miracle
shit.

someone pls laugh at me so that i could be awake.

나는 당신의 웃는 얼굴과 사랑에 빠진

back to work.
my work is in a total mess
will be damn BZBZBZBZBBZ for the entire week.
im not finding excuses not to meet u guys. =(
needa wake up early at 12pm.

sometimes i really look down on myself for not being where i wanna to be.
i told people about my plans and goals
so that they could laugh at me when im not able to achieve.

if you chose to be my competitors,
i will gladly welcome anyone especially you.
ruin me all u can.
i shouldnt be affected by you at all and i told myself totally not at all.
you image is ruining my day and i am trying to swallow and shit ur image away from me.
never. never again.
just vanish in my life and do your own fucking stuff.
i dun want to hear ur name again. never again.

나는 당신의 웃는 얼굴과 사랑에 빠진
당신의 미소로 날 드래그
조용히 당신을 보호

3% emo concentration

"you must enjoy what you doing in order to finish"

picture speaks

i saw my brother's face on me

this is so annoying. she sent me this photo and i saw my brother's face on mine.

i dun like him.

oldies. orbit

i met a carnivore. she is a fat aunite.

she broke my arm and eat my flesh in the dark.

hangover in the morning.

ate hokkien mee and chicken rice for dinner.

in fact its my first meal of the day.

11 6 12 15 11.

i have been slping fucking long and wasting my time off in my wonderland.

im so tired.

my tattoo is only 10% done since last year.

lazy.

can u ferry the machine to my home.

i promised to work hard when im back.

my teacher reprimanded me for being lazy.

im will be undergoing tough training when shes back.

zhe said.

how should i improve.

zhe-
many of the most creative and "outta the box" ideas thought up by scientists are when they are most relaxed... like lying in a bath tub and enjoying the warm water

Zhe- says:
but at some point there will still be something more I want that is beyond my reach
Zhe- says:
heard that the happiest people are not those who have everything, but those who make the most of what they have
Zhe- says:
maybe there's some truth in it..
Zhe- says:
since the rich people always seem to worried, and yet some people who have next to nothing are so happy..
Zhe- says:
as round the world travellers say...


Zhe- says:
because it will never be enough
Zhe- says:
when its more than enough, there are still some things money can't buy
Zhe- says:
and we gradually get de0sensitized to the amount of wealth we have
Zhe- says:
like when we were kids, we are so happy over an increase in pocket money of 20 cents
Zhe- says:
then start working, so happy first pay come
Zhe- says:
then first pay rest happy


Zhe- says:
then 2 k income, 3k
Zhe- says:
until one day couple hundread thousand a month

Zhe- says:
then u realize money no enough
Zhe- says:
never enough
Zhe- says:
health went down the drain


Zhe- says:
we can look at the things that we dun have and keep wondering what we want but have not get
Zhe- says:
or, we can work towards them..
Zhe- says:
but at the same time
Zhe- says:
realize that what we have now is all that is ever real.. and cherish what we have

rainy day

lucky my english sucks enough to understand.

needed-less = no need.

in the news

1) smoking will be prohibited at multi storey carpark.

omg.


im leaving singapore soon.
infact spent alot for the previous month,
car servicing
car maintenance
entertainment
air ticket
necessity for tour.

$$$ flew
my heart flew away too.

she asked me a qns: " what time u carrot"
this is how she pronouced.
i paused.

i carrot at 12pm.

but "get up" and "carrot" has a big difference in the way of pronouncing the word. g and c , p and t

hmm..


she asked me to give her a christian name,
immediately i turn to her, judy!

her impression gave me a judy impression.
so wat kind of impresson does judy gives?
make a guess. Ah pui if u are seeing this post, can u make a guess.

yo bo say yo, juby e mi da.


omg im nasty

the kids

i will update my post in a later time. rushing for work

ok im back. its 2am now and no magic can turn me into sleeping beauty. ate 4 tablets of rat poison but does not take any pretty effects at all.

i have been extreme bz with my work for the entire week hmm..perchance that everyday im flooded with work.

apologies to f n s for neglecting u.

2 familes came for a 2 days tour in singapore. therefore, bz entertaining.

bring them to luxurious restaurant, tour around the city,buy them gifts, chatting etc.

i enjoyed the process of entertaining. the satisfactory smile leaves a big impact in me

when u enjoy doing something, that is **** the point

how should i relate my occupation? freelancer? principal? ruler? ceo? president? boss?

hahaha nah.. im none of them. eh im not trying to be humble. im just an ordinary person.

a person who slps and work everyday.

the best ingredient in life is to be everyones' best friend.

basically im working for foreigners. short and sweet.

elaboration? services required by the foreigners.

further elaboration? dealing with overseas student.

i have 3 part timers who work behind the scene. i chose them out of their capability.

thats abt all i can say. my secret recipe must not be leaked. lol

signed up as a gym member this morning. chrisgan i beg u.. pls exercise.. u are becoming a pig.

i weigh 57kg today. good

i weighed 59 kg last week.

improvement.

55 would be just nice? lol

day dream!

ah pui.. i assured that u can do it. time heals all kinds of wound. urs is a minor cut, no worries and it will heal within months. im sure of it. if i can do it why cant u? im not trying to be arrogant for giving this comment. im a human being and u were one too. so whats the difference between two human being? u have to change ur personal mindset for certain perception. if you know that is destroying u in certain way, change it. besides u, none can change or predict ur future. right?No use being distraught by something.

let him go. rang ta zou..

another thing that impressed me of u, no matter how random my posts are, you will know wat im trying to imply. pei fu pei fu

sunday will be a hypertension day for me. haha wat a description right. i need to signal my brain to be alert. im getting lazy. i wished, yes i wished that i could wake up 10am in the morning.

2 days ago. i sat by the sea , all alone and pondered real hard. no answer came out. i really cant navigate them well. i wan everything to be perfect and i know nothing in this world is perfect.

i wan the best results. i wan the best outcome.

i wan everything to be the best.

i just feel so abstrused why this is happening.

im dithered by something which i do not know how to explain verbally.

it has been repeating and cycling in my mind.

i had an earnest auntie she told me something and i was touched. although i kept quiet but, the words that she told me gave me the strength to work even harder.

why? wat is my goal in life? why dun i just sleep enough everyday and spend money away as it comes.?

how can i maintain a constant speed for everyday. i cant and i failed.

feeling fatigued somehow.

intrusion of sleeps came in

my post for today is totally random.

flooded with doubts

About Me

I have always had this dream of becoming a teacher, although just a small one. Since young, my ambition in life is to be a teacher. I may not really be skilled enough to go through the challenging world now, but I feel I can improve myself too. To me, teaching carries a lot of experiences that are valuable that may be attained.


small one hur???

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how how how to how to ???? someone pls ans all my doubts.