if i had a choice, i wished to be a fish.

i realised i had attained all my goals for the year 2007.

for the month of april till now, i have been flooded with depressive associates
its contagious isnt it?
im appreciating those confide.
at least im someone who they will turn to when upset.

a psychiatrist turned to me today.
i was shocked cos isnt he a specialised
he told me how upset he got to be by listening to each and every stories of life by different families everyday.
being a shrink doesnt mean a magician. i realised.
they, too had vulnerabilities inside them.
and i guessed somehow he is affected.
dun u agree if you were to hang out with depressive ppl everyday, you will be blended in?
and if you were to blend into a group who shows their teeth of smiles everyday, you will be cheerful somehow?
its contagious.

stress, work , families or loves bring detrimental effects to our daily mood.
how should human beings control them?
we are not robots nor creatures.
theres no way we could avoid that.
what we can do is to program our ownself mindset.
just like java programming. you encode your own codes based on ur desire program.
if the world cant change for u.
u, have to change it urself.
stop blaming, cos the world could do nothing for u.
life is short, but the world is large.

as for gwen, set your own boundaries.
if he crosses the line,
just ask him to fuck off.
stay firm , assertive and ask him to back off.
unless u wanna be a fly
isnt that better?
pls u are a lady not a baby
you are the boss of urself.


truely madly deeply detesting facts:

a) ch*na. their disgust ascent and hunger to become a courtesan in our territory.
b) i have this impression that all man stinks.
c) B.O is a nono!
d) im impatient with ppl who talk in a slow and monotonous way
e) Im pissed with ppl who crosses my boundaries.
f) my room is becoming a mountain.
g) i dislike cabbies.


Random facts:

a) mustafa is my heaven
b) i slept 8 hours per day.
c) Blades of glory crazy hilarious
d) Its time for me to prone my room.
e) i enjoy being alone
f) im living in a frantic life
g) just 0.4kg more, i will sit in the obese category